I'm uncertain if there are any homosexual individuals present here. I've been grappling with my feelings for a friend for a while now, and I've come to realize that I don't just view them as a friend, but as a potential romantic partner. However, I've always identified as heterosexual. While I enjoy fantasizing about being with my friend, I'm also apprehensive about these feelings. I'm concerned that if I confess my feelings to my friend and we become intimate, I may not enjoy the sexual aspect of our relationship, causing irreparable damage to our friendship. I've tried watching gay porn, but I find myself disliking what I see, not because it disgusts me, but because it doesn't appeal to me naturally. Nevertheless, it's just a video, and I can't control what they do. Ultimately, I'm at a loss for what to do. Should I come out and confess my feelings, or what if I'm not even gay?
